Why not?

These next couple weekends are gonna suck. This summer is gonna suck.

Let’s face it. Nothing’s going to change. I’m stupid. I’m the fool. Again. I mean…I give myself this time limit on us. On how far ill let myself feel….like this. And here I am. Still here. Still waiting for something extraordinary to happen. For you to show me you want me so bad. Show me. You know.

I’m just sad..and tired of broken promises. And I can feel myself questioning everything you tell me now. Every promise you make, I denounce in my head so as to not get my hopes up. Again. So I quit. Let’s step back. I wanna keep things a little more casual. Because I can’t go on…this in love with you…and wait on you to show me something…that will probably never come. Right?

I’m just tired. And too alone with my mind. Too alone.